for me and those I train I try to see it like this:
mindset is critical, but ineffective if your body dosent posess the training to accomplish the task.
We all spend a great deal of time talking about how we must be prepared to stay alive no matter what. Without training and a developed understanding of ability, mindset falls short.
Mindset AND Survival Learning are key.
Example: Releasing your anger to overcome a suspect is the idea behind agressiveness. Effeciency of technique is the key behind superior skill building. A person that “thinks” they can simply become angry tand win, can be overcome by the stronger subject. BUT, a person thjat is angry, controlled and effecient WILL overcome a stronger subject.
I believe as I said that we struggle with right and wrong because we are not pre-disposed to violence. Training allows us to harness our powere and use it under duress. Mindset properly coupled with survival learning is the key.
You still feel apologetic in training because you still have mental indecision regarding action.
Try this: look for nothing from your training except the history of the art you study. do not think of the couse of self defense in it. as you become more in tune with the “art” your health and then the benefits of aggression, you might be suprised at your ability to let go.
I know this is all very “zen-ish ” but your Sifu has a plan, you just have to let go and follow it.
regarding training: we learn 80-90 percent faster by seeing and doing. Even those of us that are bookish, we still process faster via physical interaction, so you need the training to make it understandable. You can reinforce it by reading it later.
regarding the criminal. You are 100 per cent correct. Most criminals are not smart. They do however do one thing and do it well: The crime they chose. The “practice” in real time to ensure their skills work.
We have to learn that from them to be better. “BE what you DO”
hope I didnt confuse you too much, I am typing this as I am working the streets. HAPPY NEW YEAR..